Once again I have decided to quit Lunia, Lords Online and online gaming in general. Lunia like most online game are forever on-going--if it survives--while we the players have a limited life time. Eleven years ago I started playing starcraft online, which nearly destroyed my college education. I have many games online but Lunia have captured my attention for the last 3 years and Lords Online in the last 9 months. Gaming online started as a source of entertainment for me but eventually became an addiction and even an escape when life came crashing down on me more than once. I am sure there are many other gamer like me out there who are facing these same problem--how to quit gaming. Online gaming and online activities in general is a very under-addressed problem in our society.
I thought that I can just play casually and get on once or twice a week to to do some pvp or what not but that was just a self-delusion. I am a very competitive gamer and when I play any game, I only want to be the best. I am not a sore loser but when I lose, I must get even by practicing harder and harder until I can beat that person. In the end, however, no one can remain on the top unless that player choose to play non-stop and constantly honing his skill. There was no point in doing 30+ hit windmill and only to lose that ability once I came back to Lunia from months of absence--just like my 1v1 melee skill in starcraft; cannot keep up with people once u quit and come back.
I know now that I cannot play a game online casually due to my very competitive nature. I know now that I must throw all of this gaming away if I wish to be more productive with my life. There are many ventures in life that I wish to attempt, be it's a failure or a success. I will forever remain the average if I never attempt to be successful. I know that if I do not put enough effort in the making of my life, my future, my history, then I will regret it when I am older and looking back at my wasteful youth. It is very hard for me to take this first step to un-habituate my life but I know that it is a must.
To everyone that I have encountered in my gaming career, I wish you all good luck in your endeavors be it in your gaming or your life. And good luck to myself, hoping that I will never again return to onling gaming as I have done many times in the past.
Sincerely,
Eonthebullet
EonSin
Anh Nguyen
This post has been edited by eonthebullet: 07 September 2010 - 12:20 AM

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