[Allea]

Have you people ever felt what loneliness and sadness really feels like? I've been there and I'm there at this very moment.

My reasons is that: I've been bullied ever since I was six and all the way until grade 12. For me it's very hard to make friends because I'm anti-social/shyness and the fact that I still haven't been in a relationship with another male though...

I see kids that have friends where they have fun to the point where I feel so sad and lonely, then jealousy and malice. I also cry a lot like a rash crybaby and I'm really weak willed...

My emotions have gotten in the way a lot of times and I feel like I want to give up.
Most of you guys wouldn't know what this feels like...I don't know what to do anymore...I've tried to keep a happy face but when I saw people having a good time with their friends or lovers...I got sad again.

~Allea.

This post has been edited by Allea: 27 September 2009 - 06:23 AM

[Getsuga]

Wow Allea, I knew you were somehow socially inept. But I didn’t think it would be this bad. Man, you sure know how to make your problems worse.

First of all you’re socially awkward. Second, you’re being an emo crybaby, Third, no this won’t fix your problems. Fourth, stop attentionwhoring. Last, no one cares. So why am I typing this all out for you? Well, it’s because I pity you and so are the rest that are going to reply to this thread. This is the internet, this is not the right place to replace things with things you don’t have in real life. This is not the right place for you to find ‘friends’. This is not the right place to find ‘love’. And this is totally not the right replace to escape from your real life.

You should know by looking at yourself that ‘real life Allea’ is different from ‘internet Allea’. How much different, I don’t know. Only you know that and only you. Now that you are aware of this, you’ll notice that the ‘friends’ you make here are also different from their real life perspective. This basically means that you’re building a friendship based upon lies. This applies to most(keyword)people here on the internet. I don’t really have a problem with this.
Do you have a problem with this, Allea?

True friendship is basically like love. You need to be honest with eachother. A relationship based upon lies will fail and same applies to friendship.

Most people will agree that from the dozens of friends you made in high school. Only one or two are truly friends(aka best friends). They are usually the ones that will stick with you for a long time. While you’ll probably never see the other friends ever again after high school.

Internet friends are fine if you just want ‘friends’, but reading your current situation. It’s probably the best for you to find really good friends. I can’t really give you advice on how to make friends, since they basically come naturally for me. Only thing I can say is the cliché “Be yourself”.

This should sort out some things out for you. If you ever think about suicide, just keep in mind that some people do care about you.

Also

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I still haven't been in a relationship with another male though...

Cool story bro.

[Marq]

kewl assessment, Docta Getsuga

[kitty]

omg this gave me an idea. we should have an offline party in new york 2 years from now when i have monies.

[Marq]

idk cause its almost 2010 and if in two years its 2012 then ur party may kil us all cause the aztecs said we would die and stuff

[Nite]

Getsuga, on 27 September 2009 - 10:56 AM, said:

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I still haven't been in a relationship with another male though...

Cool story bro.

you mean friendship?

na meanz

and cool story getsuga

[silklash]

we shuld all jus b friends n b happy ^______________________^

[Allea]

I don't like to make things worse but because the way that I am now, I feel very unconfident in myself and I can't say what to do anymore...

[derangedcow]

the more sad u talk the more sad you'll be
u need a therapist because nobody likes a crybaby
doesnt even have to be a professional therapist, but most people just dont like to hear endless complaining and low self esteem gibberish that drags their mood down. by non-professional therapist, i mean a therapist can just be a good friend
if u dont even have 1 good friend who you've been comfortable to talk with, then hire a therapist. and by good friend i mean someone who you have good times with; not someone you met through emoness, cause that means they were just being nice and listening to your problems that ONE time
making (or trying to make) people feel bad to make yourself feel better only makes them annoyed

maybe if you don't have friends then you should stop playing games and meet somebody in the library or something reading a book youve already read idk
u already stopped playing lunia so u shouldnt have started dungeon fighter

[Getsuga]

Allea, on 27 September 2009 - 02:52 PM, said:

I don't like to make things worse but because the way that I am now, I feel very unconfident in myself and I can't say what to do anymore...

Well, you got 2 options.
1. Change
2. Become an hero

I don't care either way. Only thing I want is the link to the article if Allea chose option 2.

Stop playing games and go outside. Go outside and look for a life. Look for a life and make friends. Make friends and fall love. Fall in love and get boned in the ass(if that's what you like).


Also, Night be a good admin and start deleting these crap threads made by Allea. I know America is the land of FREEEEEEEDUMMMMMMM, but this emo shit is not making Fusion look good. Having a faggot as guildleader isn't good either, but this emoness on your forum is worse.

[Allea]

Getsuga, I'm no longer in Fusion..so deleting this wouldn't make a difference.

[Getsuga]

Allea, on 27 September 2009 - 04:02 PM, said:

Getsuga, I'm no longer in Fusion..so deleting this wouldn't make a difference.

Obviously, I'm talking about the forum. If you were still in Fusion, I'd advise Night to kick you. u shuld leik teak lesuns in redankomprehenshun

Also delete his account while you're at it.

[Marq]

gets hasnt even been in fusion when allea came and he figured it out already. you repeat the same crap too many times allea and pep get tired of hearing it. anyways night is a btch so he wont delete anything cause he just likes taking it. if anything rob would do it since he deleted like 2 of my threads b4

[Allea]

I know that Marq...sadly I learnt things the hard way, and actually Getsuga was still here when I joined Fusion, but I'm not sure how long....and Marq, Getsu knows is because we used to be in another guild...

Anyways, I'll try and cheer up now. Thanks.

This post has been edited by Allea: 27 September 2009 - 04:51 PM

[kitty]

cheer up allea. the best way to change is to become more involved in society. make a 10 year plan!

~why be in drama when you can be the one watching the drama? HUH?

[OoNemooO]

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I still haven't been in a relationship with another male though...

Nite, on 27 September 2009 - 01:26 PM, said:

you mean friendship?

Getsuga, on 27 September 2009 - 10:56 AM, said:

True friendship is basically like love.

silklash, on 27 September 2009 - 01:37 PM, said:

we shuld all jus b friends n b happygay ^______________________^

Getsuga, on 27 September 2009 - 10:56 AM, said:

I can’t really give you advice on how to make friends, since they basically come naturally for me.

u make me laugh

kitty, on 27 September 2009 - 12:34 PM, said:

omg this gave me an idea. we should have an offline party in new york 2 years from now when i have monies.

OMG i actually thought about this sometimes ago
like having dimsum LOL

[Anteres]

kitty, on 27 September 2009 - 12:34 PM, said:

omg this gave me an idea. we should have an offline party in new york 2 years from now when i have monies.

Half of Fusion lives there doesn't it?

[Marq]

only the half that matters ohohohohoh `-`

[Allea]

Actually I should clear something up, believe it or not, I am gay. So what Nite said about friendship, I am also looking for friendship too in that case both genders. Anyways, I wrote this because I've thought about it and such.

This post has been edited by Allea: 27 September 2009 - 11:28 PM

[Anteres]

Marq, on 27 September 2009 - 11:05 PM, said:

only the half that matters ohohohohoh `-`

You suck ;-;